the beautifuls

i saw two of my favorite girls tonight, and met katy's new love. he seems really wonderful.

it was truly delightful to see them. we are each growing into our new, adult selves, and fitting back with each other again. it's wonderful. i love hearing about their lives. they are so different from mine, but each fascinating and rich. i just love them.
tomorrow i get to spend more time with betsy, have breakfast with her and melissa, and then see katy again at a surprise party for her parents. katy and i have been getting much better at keeping in contact with each other, and it is adding so much to my life.
being home is interesting as always. honestly, if it weren't for these girls, i would hardly want to be here at all.

despite all the craziness that's going on, and all the stress in life, and all the unknowns, there are so many beautiful, beautiful things in life. i am overcome.

it feels like a screeching halt

today my voice teacher and i had a pretty extensive talk about my possibly taking a year off to study and work before jumping into grad school. we both agree that the extra time together working would probably help me to really be firm in my technique and have a better chance at really getting everything i can out of a grad program.

the idea first occurred to me saturday, before i had even heard back from michigan, and i was just swamped with work and practicing. i thought, 'what am i doing to myself? maybe i just need a rest from this.' and actually, lots of people in my field take a year off before doing their grad programs. i am ultra-young to be auditioning for these things (i.e. most of my competition is on average 3-5 years older than i am), and the extra year would be...more than beneficial. i could use a chance to get all polished. then next year i can do the whole freaking process again, but hopefully with better results and another year under my belt.

boyfriend is not sure it's a good idea. he's worried i'll get distracted, but it might actually be good for me to have nothing to focus on except singing. he says he'll support whatever decision i make. he's good like that.

additionally, but honestly unrelated to my actual reasons for perhaps wanting a hiatus, are all the friends i have here (both in the city and at school). i have really clicked with some of the underclassmen, including both (obviously) boyfriend and one girl who was apparently the missing pea to my pod this whole time. she's great. and so is boyfriend. but these people would really just be icing on the cake of staying here and focusing.

oh life, even when you are crazy and confusing, you are just beautiful.

whoa. life.

i've still not heard anything back from most of the schools i'm waiting on.

however, i did, last night, start dating a really nice boy at school. he makes me laugh and smile. he likes to look at stars with me and hold my hand. i like him a lot. today we each played one hand of a piano nocturne. it was very dorky of us and i liked it.

now i think it's bedtime. i should really be sleeping more.

grad school update #4

i got my first acceptance letter today from the ohio state university! right now it's not my first choice, but it is encouraging to know that i will be going somewhere next fall! hooray!

also, i have somewhere to live for the summer. and it's with people i like. and. it's cheap.